Don't you just love the title of this blog.  i got it form one of my friend's site and ever since i read it the more i cant stop being sad.  i do believe that in our live one can do anything as long as you have that "one" by your side.  i know that we are taught to be independent but we all need that one person who will always support us in every way, even when they know that what we are doing is wrong or in the wrong. 

recently i thought i knew who my "one" was.  that person made me feel that they felt the same way too.  and for the longest time i never let myself open completely to that person because of our past history, but in the past couple of months that person  cross a thin line by performing an act that i thought was his way in going to the next level.  Because for me, i don't just do it unless i feel something for that one person. i now regret in not asking why he did it.  But it seems like i don't have to ask anymore.

he said that he cared for me the most and that he were going to always take care of me.  but how about now?  where are you now?  he said that i'm important to him and that i wasn't use.  how is this possible?  how can you say those things to me when there is no ounce of truth to it.

i made various detour to get to this path and now i have come to the end and now i'm lost and stuck in a position no where to go.

i genuinely hope that he found what he was looking for and that he will be well taken care of.

have you ever wonder if the people around are genuine?  this is dedicated to myself.

better in time by leona lewis

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time